Wednesday, July 25, 2012

30 Things (2)

Best of Both Worlds

2. Describe 3 legitimate fears you have and explain how they became fears.

1. DEATH- I fear dieing or losing someone close. I have lost a few people in my life and it is the worst feeling ever! Maybe I fear this because I don't understand it. When I was little I thought we were supposed to get old and die in our sleep, like when we were over 100, but that's not life at all. I don't understand why the young die. I don't understand why people get sick and die. I know it's all part of our "plan", but I just don't understand it. I don't ever want to die and I surely don't want anyone of my loved ones to die.

2. DROWNING- I know this comes along with death, but I am so scared to drown. I have gotten caught in the water where I've gotten turned around and didn't know which way is up. It is soooooo scary. I am fine with swimming, but when we go into the ocean, in the back of my mind I am always scared of being sucked away and drowning.

3. BEING IN A CAR ACCIDENT- This is one of my biggest fears is being in a car accident. I rear ended someone before, totaled my car but just scraped his bumper. I wreaked my xB while I was 7 months pregnant. It was a pretty bad accident, I got hit going about 60 in a T bone style crash on my passenger side. It then pun me out into the median where I took out a stop sign. Luckily the baby was okay and I only broke my wrist, ribs, and toe. The rest was all just bruising and cuts. It was the worse feeling ever. I just remember being in a daze and I couldn't remember Kenny's phone number. And I was living 2 hours away from my family and Kenny at the time. I was worried that the other person was hurt. The last thing I EVER want to do is hurt (or worse) anyone while driving even if it isn't my fault. I get caught up on the "what ifs" and I don't know if I would be able to live with myself.


  1. I fear drowning more than anything else!
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    1. It's such a scary thought. I also fear being burned to death! Ekkkkk. What happened to dieing old when you are asleep?

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  2. I use to fear death too, my biggest fear is drowning and I almost did. I mean I still fear death but it's different now. I had a near death experience. I was hit in the head with a wave runner in 05' and I spent days in the hospital (and months recovering, more like years). I had a ton of surgery on my very broken face and when I got out everyone told me I should be thanking the big man above for being alive. I do that now everyday but I go about death in a very different way. He put us here to do a job and when we are done he will take us away and I am now ok with that. It is probably not normal for a 34 year old to feel that way. We are probably just now suppose to be starting to grasp what death is really about but with the experience I had I have no other way but to look at it differently. It completely turned my life around and I am in a completely different place in my life then when it happened.