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Wednesday, July 30, 2014

One Month Old Emily!

Since I am late with most things recently, I am now just getting around to taking 1 month old pictures of Miss Emily! So technically they are 6 week and 6 day old pictures, but hey I got to start somewhere!



 














(Not impressed by Mommy making the bunny kiss her!)









 
 
 

10 Things on Tuesday!

I have to hurry up with this since it's already after midnight! But shhhh don't tell anyone!

1. It's hard to believe tomorrow Emily will be 7 weeks old! I'm still not over how fast the pregnancy went so this is nuts to me!

2. Speaking of time flying by, I took Emily's 1 month pictures and hope to have a post tomorrow for you! So come back on Wednesday!

3. I went to my postpartum appointment today! I took my OB a card with a handwritten note and $5 gift card for starbucks! After keeping her on call for 3 days plus a 4:45 am wake up call to deliver me, she deserves a cup of coffee from me! Plus I truly appreciate how caring and nice she was all pregnancy.

4. It's time to think about birth control and since I can't have hormones with my heart, she recommends the paragaurd IUD. I called the insurance company and they pay for it to be put in and removed, but not the $500 device. Since its just a copper T, I asked if we could just shove a penny up there since it's also copper. That was a negative! Ha!

5. Went to target today and left with NOTHING!

6. Went to BJs afterwards and stocked up on a good amount of stuff and between club coupons and manufactured coupons,  I saved $40. In fact with the way I paired lysol coupons they PAID me $4 to buy a 6 pack of lysol toilet cleaner! And paid $.99 for a 4 box pack of caprice suns! Woot woot!

7. Tax free weekend in VA starts Friday so I def need to get to target to school supply shop!

8. I can not believe August starts on Friday! Where did July go?!

9. Hailey's birthday is on the 16th and I am so behind this year! I need to figure out our family party and the small one I do with her friends. I'm thinking build a bear? Or Michaels for a craft?

10. Less then 2 weeks until I return to work, but we won't talk about that because I'll spend the rest of the night crying! Ekkkk I already cried in the OB office about it. Ps: she decided after that to up my anxiety meds ha!

Tuesday, July 15, 2014

10 things on Tuesday!

It's that time again! It's Tuesdayyyyyyy!

1. I'm going to try to get back into blogging regular. There's so much to share with Emily and Hailey! Plus it's good to get my thoughts out! I'll need that more than ever as I approach my 8 week mark and returning to work! I can't believe Emily will be 5 weeks tomorrow already!

2. My Ergobaby carrier that I won off ebay finally came today! I couldn't wait to put it on and get Emily in it! A friend of mine let me borrow the Moby wrap and it's come in handy so hopefully Emily will love this one too!

3. Yesterday was a picnic with Hailey's first grade teacher at one of the manors on the battle fields. It was pretty neat and I took a lot of pictures to post with my big girl camera!

4. I want a vacation at the beach sooooo bad! We haven't gone anywhere in 4 years and that last one was the trip to FL to attend my grandmother's funeral. Seeing everyone's beach and pool pictures has gotten me so bummed, but we can't afford anything this year, that's for sure!

5. We NEVER went on vacation when I was little. In fact the first time I saw a beach was when I was 18 for a weekend and the first week long vacation I had was when Hailey was 1. It might not happen this year, but I hope the girls will have many memories of vacations growing up!

6. I am addicted to Papa John's bread sticks and garlic butter!

7. My Fitness Pal diary does not like the breadsticks as much as me! Ekkkkk way too many calories!

8. I have been tracking all my calories using MFP. I'm so proud of myself! And yes I am patting myself on the back!

9. I spent over 5 hours applying for a job in the county government. I am praying that I get it! Not only is it in social services, which is an interest of mine, but it's close to home! It's a pay cut and basically will just barely cover my bills, but it would save me so much time and my sanity!

10. I wish so many things were different, but I truly have been trying to stay positive. It's not always the easiest and tonight is one of those nights!

Thursday, July 10, 2014

And Then There Were Two (Birth Story Part 2)

Okay so where were we?!
 
Once we were moved to the new room, I could finally get food and rest! All I could think about though was Hailey coming to meet her sister! This is something I had dreamed about before I was even pregnant! I wanted to make sure she was the first one to meet her. Being that she was an hour and a half away at my Mom's,  I knew we would have to wait for a bit. It was okay though because I had nurses coming in and out checking on us and we were waiting for Emily's temperature to adjust so she could have her first bath!
 
The morning quickly passed as we napped and got ready for Hailey to come! When my mom called and said they were almost there, I got so nervous. I seriously had been waiting for this special moment for years. Before coming to the hospital,  I had taken Hailey to the store to pick something special for her to give Emily and I had spent hours trying to pick out the perfect gift for Emily to give Hailey.
 
I couldn't wait for the knock at my door knowing it was Hailey! When it finally came it was all I could do to not yell out of excitement "come meet your little sister"! She came right over and looked at her and smiled. I told her she could touch her and she felt her little hands and touched her little ears. Hailey doesn't get overly excited about things and being an excitable person, it drives me nuts!  But I could tell she was excited to finally be meeting Emily. I asked her if she wanted to hold her, and she climbed up in my bed so we could put a pillow in her lap to help support her and readily put her arms out. I put a sleeping Emily in her arms and she starred down at her. It honestly melted my heart! I asked if she wanted to give Emily her present and handed it to her. Of course Emily didn't even bat an eye. Then I told her Emily had something for her and gave her the box with her big sister bracelet which she immediately wanted on! It was a prefect moment for sure! She fed her and held her for at least an hour while she just starred at her. It was prefect!
 
It was Emily's time to go get her first bath and while she was gone, Hailey paced back and forth wondering where she was and what was taking so long. Emily was gone about 45 minutes and came back fresh and clean! They said she wasn't happy during the bath, but loved having her hair washed! After some more cuddling, it was finally time for Hailey and my Mom to head home. They said their good byes and my Mom promised Hailey to bring her back the next day.
 
That evening Emily was pretty content and when the pediatrician and nurse came in, they informed us that we could leave the next morning instead of having to wait until that Friday. We were both doing great and since I wasn't a first time mom, we didn't have to stay the extra time.
 
That night went pretty well. She woke up several times to eat and to be changed. The nurse came in and took her for a bit to run some tests and to allow us to get some rest. She was only gone for a little over an hour, but when she got back we were both awake and waiting for her.
 
They informed us that her bilirubin levels were high and would need to be rechecked in the afternoon but we could still go home most likely. We had a couple visitors and my Mom and Hailey came back in the afternoon. They took Emily and ran some more labs. At 4:30 the pediatrician came in and said her levels had increased most likely due to some bruising on her head from being the wrong way when we started pushing, but that I was being released and needed to call and make her an appointment with her pediatrician for the next day. I immediately called and got an appointment the next morning.
 
To be honest, I was a little disappointed that we were being released so soon. I liked people taking care of me and having someone checking in on me. I remembered how hard that was when I left the hospital with Hailey and went back to the real world. I had very little help from Kenny and things were very stressful. That was one of the huge reasons that I wanted the house to be prefect when we came home. I was scared to go through that again and cried the entire time we were being discharged. It made it harder when people were asking if I was okay, and I couldn't tell them what was wrong.  I knew it was best because we could take Hailey home and she could go to school on her last day of school and I felt bad for the way I felt, but face it, I was sore and exhausted and hormonal so I was allowed to have my moment.
 
We left that evening and headed home! It actually wasn't that bad, except for coming home to a house without a working air conditioner (Two days later we had a temporary fix). Once home things fell into place easier than I thought. I watched as Hailey sat on the floor reading books to Emily and talking to her. We cooked dinner and then got ready for Hailey's last day of school and for bed. I will admit, it was nice to sleep in my own bed and Emily did awesome that night!
 
As for Emily's bilirubin levels, we were sent back to the hospital to get labs done and found out they had increased that Friday. We were sent back to the labs on Saturday and finally got the call Sunday morning that they had gone down a point so we no longer had to worry as long as she continued to eat well and that the yellowing would go away shortly (which it did)!
 
So there we have it! A completed birth story! But it's not over until I share all the pictures from that day!
 
Baby Hair!
 
 
 
 
 
 Big sister holding her for the very first time!



 Daddy and his girls!
 

 Holy hot mess! Mommy and her girls!
 
 Feeding baby sister!
 
 Gift Hailey picked out for Emily!
 
 Big sister bracelet from Emily!


 

 Just couldn't take her eyes off of her!

 Going home outfit!
 



Welcome home!




 

 

Monday, June 30, 2014

And then there were two! (Birth story part 1)

I'm backkkkkk! Have you missed me?!? And boy do I have a lot to share!

If you follow my blog, you knew that I went in to be induced at 39 weeks due to high blood pressure that I had prior to pregnancy. I was all set to be induced on June 8th and we were pretty hopeful for a June 9th baby! Due to a failed non stress test, we were sent to Labor and Delivery that Friday before, so she almost came even earlier then expected, but after a few hours we were discharged because baby girl had perked up!

Since we were back on track of our game plan, that Saturday I decided to spend some extra special time with Hailey! We went and got hair cuts and then we cooled off with some Sonic drinks. We headed off for pedicures together at our favorite spot, and somehow I was talked into manicures too for both of us so we got the whole spa treatment that day! Finally I grabbed a dozen crabs and headed home. We ate dinner together and then watched a movie. It was a great way to spend our full last day together before I headed into the hospital.

That Sunday I woke up with a ton of things I wanted to accomplish. I went nuts trying to clean and get everything in order. I wanted so badly to have the house looking amazing so that when I came home with the new little baby that I would not have to worry about anything! Of course, I wasn't able to get everything done before it was time to pack up and head off. I was stressed and an emotional mess!

We loaded up the car with all our bags and the dog and headed on out around 3pm that Sunday! We dropped the dog off at one of my best friends house on the way and then we were at the point of no return. We got to the hospital around 4pm and put in a room. I filled out a ton of paperwork, they started an IV, and labs came in and drew some blood. I sat around for a long time waiting for a doctor to check me. We still had Hailey with us and Kenny had to get her back home and showered, so I said my good byes to Hailey and they left. Kenny was coming back, but Hailey was spending the night at the neighbor's house so she could attend school that Monday for a "Summer Birthdays" class party. She even got to take in cookies and a party favor for the class!

While they were gone, the doctor on call came in and checked me and I was still only 1cm and not thinned at all. They inserted cervidil and I was told to get a good night sleep and have a good dinner. I called Kenny and placed my "last meal request" so he could pick it up on his way back. From that point on, it was just a quiet and uneventful night.

Monday morning I was awaken at 7am and they took the cervidil out. I was allowed to shower and eat some breakfast. My doctor came in around 8am and checked me again, hoping that the cervidil had helped make things progress and help soften and thin my cervix. Of course, my luck there was little change. I did have contraction the entire night, but I didn't even know I was having them. After she checked me, I started pitocin and basically napped and sat around waiting all day. At one point I looked down at my hand and it was three times the size it should be. I had blown my IV. I was given a new one and, but because of the time the IV was out they had to drop the pitocin way down again and we had to start the increase process again. My Mom came over and picked Hailey up from school. They stopped by for a bit so the very disappointed Hailey could say hello to us. She just didn't understand why Emily wasn't here yet! After they left, I went back to the waiting game. I was still having steady contractions every 3 to 5 minutes, they were strong, but not long. Around 8pm my doctor returned and said she didn't see a baby coming in my near future and that we were to stop the pitocin and do cervidil another night. She was pretty confident that I would be having a baby by noon that next day. That night I tossed and turned and hoped there had been some change. I also managed to blow another IV during the night!

The next morning was very similar to the day before. I was awakened early so I could have the cervidil removed and could shower. I was pretty confident that something had happened overnight. When the doctor came in she said I was at 2cm, but the baby had moved down and I had thinned a lot. We decided to break my water now. It was strange because with Hailey it was a huge gush when they broke my water. This time was a pop feeling, but neither her or I were sure it had broken. That was until I had gotten up to use the bathroom and that started the trickle I would have constantly until I delivered! We started pitocin again and she headed back to the office and said she would see me around noon. My contractions got very strong and were very close together. After about an hour I decided to get an epideral. They came in and set me all up for an epideral. Believe me, it's not fun, but I figured it's well worth it. It worked pretty good, but within a half an hour, all the feeling came back in my left side, then shortly after that my right side. They came in and did a big shot into my lines, but it didn't help. Now I was in a lot of pain and  I was in tears. They came in and took it out. It had to be redone again. I wasn't a happy camper, but hey! about ten minutes later, I was back to being comfortable, so I guess I shouldn't complain that much! Lunch time came and went and I had only made it to 3cm. My doctor said we should have a baby around 5pm. Dinner time came and went and still no progression. They took me off the monitors and put internal ones on both the baby and I. They hoped this would get us a better picture of what was going on. I was 4cm at this point. She said she would return at 8pm if she didn't hear anything sooner. 8pm came and went and this time when she came to check on me she stopped telling me times. She told me that she was confident that I would all the sudden go from nothing to ready to push. My contractions were very strong and I spent most my time rotating from side to side every 30 minutes with a big rubber peanut looking thing in between my legs to keep my pelvis spread. There was a few times where when my contractions would get really strong, that the baby's heart rate would drop, but besides that I was having strong contractions and the baby was still doing good. I was able to move around a bit more comfortable after I was taken off the monitors that were on the bands and were put on the internal ones.

At bed time I was starving, tired, and pretty sure that the baby would never be coming out. I tried to get some rest. Around 4am I woke up and had gotten really uncomfortable. I had been told to watch for pressure. I was pretty sure that's what I was feeling. I called the nurse and they came in. I was 8cm when she checked. At 4:30 it was getting a lot stronger and I was 10cm when they checked this time around. The nurse called my doctor and she arrived at 4:45am in the middle of a very loud thunderstorm. Shortly after she arrived she said she when I was ready it was time to start pushing. I can honestly say that child birth is the most exhausting and physically excruciating thing I have ever experienced. I had Kenny on one side of me, a nurse on the other and my doctor right there coaching me on. I was told to grab my legs and pull them to my stomach, put my chin to my chest and push with everything I had. Now I will admit it was a completely different experience then when I had Hailey. It was calmer and I was in charge, when I was ready to push I pushed! I pushed constantly for 15 minutes (it was 30 minutes with Hailey) with little break in between. I wasn't in the insane pain that I was with Hailey, but after days of contractions I was exhausted and ready to throw in the towel, but somehow I kept going!

After 59 hours from start to end, at 5:12am on Wednesday June 11th, Emily was born. She was 7lbs 8oz and 18" long. They laid her on my chest and even though she was purple and full of baby goo, it was such an amazing feeling. Kenny cut the cord and they wrapped her up and handed her to me. All I could do was look at her and tell her hello, and how we had waited for her, and that I was her mommy and Kenny was her daddy and that she had a big sister waiting to meet her. She never once left our sight that morning. They gave her her shots and did everything right in the room right next to my bed. She stayed between mine and Kenny's arms the entire time.

Shortly after, I was helped up out of bed and to the bathroom. I definitely forgot how messy childbirth was afterwards! We packed up our bags and with our baby in my arms I was wheeled to our next spot, the postpartum area!

And I think this is a perfect spot to stop for the night! Emily had a very busy first day of life so that deserves it's own post! But don't worry, I have pictures to share up until this point!

 
Monday!

Tuesday! Still waiting!
 



 
 
 
 



Welcome to the world Emily Elizabeth!
Wednesday June 11, 2014 at 5:12 am

Tuesday, June 3, 2014

10 Things on Tuesday!

1. So my alarm is set for 4:30am since it's back to work for me for the rest of the week.

2. My OB scheduled me for induction at 39 weeks starting Sunday evening. So we should have an Emily come Monday or possibly Tuesday! I haven't figured out what I am. The only emotion I have is bummed I have to go back to work for the rest of the week! I'm sure all the nervousness and excitement will hit me this weekend though!

3. Kenny's cousin is due July 1st but is being induced Tuesday. Trying to schedule Birthday parties in the future will be interesting.

4. I told Hailey we would do something special just her and I this Saturday! I think hair trims and maybe I can splurge on pedis or something. I want something special.

5. I picked up two watermelons at the store today! Now this makes me very happy! It should hold me over for a little bit!

6. I need to look on amazon for some kind of tool to cut watermelon. I know they have things for other fruits. There's got to be a simpler way!

7. All the new baby stuff has been washed and folded and put away. I started on a load of Hailey's baby clothes but I just remembered they are still in the wash and I never switched them over. Guess I'll rewash them tomorrow since I'm in bed already. #toolazy

8. I get tired of negativity from people. Yes I am already a worry wart and overthinker, I don't need you pointing out things for me to think about. It is what it is.

9. At least with waiting until Sunday, I have time to really get the house ready. With Hailey we came home to a messy house and it was not fun. It would be nice to just come home and relax this time around. Plus I need to squeeze this last bit of nesting out of me before it's gone!

10. I'm stressed thinking about Hailey and what we are going to do with her while we are in the hospital. I really wanted to keep things normal for her, but without having family around to help it's going to be hard. She has a summer birthday and her teacher is celebrating all the summer birthdays with the class on Monday. I was planning on just sending her to Maryland to stay with my mom the first part of the week, but we know she doesn't want to miss that party. Right now the solution we came up with is leaving me at the hospital in the evening Sunday and Kenny taking her home and getting her ready for school then on the bus in the morning. I'm kind of bummed since they are starting the potocin at 6am and he won't be there until 9 or 9:30am. And then maybe my mom can pick her up after school and keep her for a few days. I wish we had someone who could just come stay at the house with her while we are in the hospital, but neither of us have the type of family that's like that. I'm sure we will figure it out and it will all work out in the end. I just don't want the first memory Hailey to have of her baby sister to be the fact she missed out on her school birthday party.


Monday, June 2, 2014

Baby Bump Update!

 
Happy 38 weeks Emily!
 
Time has been flying by since I last updated. As of last Friday, baby girl was 7lbs exactly and passed all her tests for the day. At first she was about to fail the practice breathes portion, but right before she marked it down, Emily took 3 perfect big gulps! She's always borderline on the NSTs, but that could be my medicines, poor thing! I was told to ask perinatology for their recommendations about delivery and they said they would do it between 38 and 39 weeks, not a day over 39 weeks! Kenny and I looked at each other and said "That's this coming week!" So there may be a baby by the end of this week! The doctor said right now she is breathing and doing pretty good so it would be better to deliver now while her placenta is working and she and I are both healthy, then to continue to push me further and have something go wrong and end with no baby or with an emergency on my part. They said even if they do biophysicals and NSTs on her everyday, we would still be taking that chance of something going wrong in the time she decides to come on her own. Ultimately my OB has the final say in this and I go see her tomorrow morning! So I will keep you guys posted! I am keeping all my fingers and toes crossed that this will be one of my final days of coming to work! I am so ready to begin that 8 week break from work!
 
I have had some little hiccups along the last month with my pregnancy. One being that my heart is not beating right. It keeps going into these long patterns of skipping every beat (bi-gemini) and my resting pulse rate is 110 and above. I get very dizzy and have felt faint a lot. My blood pressure also keeps dropping which is not good for me or the baby. This is a sign my heart is in distress (most likely from the increase of progesterone) so after the 10 day monitor results came back, I had an emergency appointment with the cardiologist and my medicines were switched. Now of course Emily has to be watched twice a week at perinatolgy because of the possible effects it can have on her. Overall this pregnancy has gone much better then expected, but it's been challenging. I am ready for it to be over with and have my baby in my arms instead of constantly worrying if she is okay. My new medicine slows my heart and tries to regulate it, which makes me feel like crap, so I am just hoping it has no effect on her. 
 
But as ready as I say I am, I am very nervous and anxious for her to come! I ALMOST have her room ready! I can probably get it finished tonight! And I have two loads of all her new clothes washed. I have one more load of new clothes to do then about 5 loads of all of Hailey's baby clothes to rewash. Then to fold and put it all away But the good news is that she will have clothes to wear when she comes home and not just a diaper! And speaking of diapers and wipes, I am pretty sure I will not need to buy either her entire time in diapers! I unpacked 3 moving boxes full of leftovers from Hailey's and literally have a whole closet top and bottom stacked will all sizes of diapers! I am super excited about that! It's overwhelming looking at it, but it is such an awesome thing! Tonight I plan on starting to wash some bottles and getting our bags packed! I figured I should be ready! Oh and I NEED to remember to have the camera fully charged so I'll have lots of pictures to share! So I think after the past few days of stressing over her soon to be arrival, after tonight I will finally be okay for when she comes!  
 
 
Big sister definitely can not wait!